"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! THE END IS NEAR!! All is lost, there is no hope. We all predicted it would happen . . . but never this soon!". This is me on the last day of Springbreak weeping in self pity about how I have to go back to the " Crapiest place on earth!" ( a.k.a school). I was bursting with joy that Friday when they let out school. Usually I'm just happy when it's the weekend, but to not have to see my teachers for a whole week . . . it was like a dream come true. I walked out of there without looking back once. Now Springbreak is almost over and I have to go from being calm, happy, and cheerful to being stressed, grumpy, and over worked. Plus I have the SAT, ARMT, Writing Assesment, and Science Assesment!!! I'm slowly loosing my mind just thinking about it. Why do we need all these test anyway? All they do to me personly is put me more on edge than I usually am ( and that's saying something!!). Here is a list of things that happen to me and my surroundings when testing time comes around ( these are not in chronological order).
1. Clumps of hair start falling out of my head from stress.
2. My diet entirely changes from eating 3 meals a day to stuffing myself silly 3 times a day (I eat to relieve stress).
3. I have start having nightmares about taking the test.
4. I get claustrophobic while taking the test.
5. My friends start freaking out, and have panic attacks on a daily bases.
6. My friends stress me out with their on going panic attack problem.
7. My teachers start freaking out shouting " SHUT YOUR FACE!!!" more frequently than usual.
8. The gym teachers start thinking. This is never good.
9. The gym teachers start thinking that since we sit around all day taking test that we should work twice as hard durring gym. This means running.( I can almost feel my lungs shutting down as I write this)
See what this test does to me and to the people around me!! This isn't healthy!! No kid should ever have this much stress or pain. I wish I wouln't freak out about it so much, but I can't help it. Whether I like it or not these tests determine my future.These test determine how people, teachers, and colleges will look at me. Even though the tests really don't mean anything to me they mean alot in the world , which is sad when you think about it. I wish someone would really look and study kids. We no longer have fun, we work, and we study. We worry about college, and our future instead of having fun. Kids are growing up to fast, and we aren't enjoying and cherishing our childhood and youth because we're to worried about our adulthood. When we are born,we are born with an innocence, and a truth, we are care free and simple things could make us happy.When we are born we are born unafraid and fearless because we never had anyone or anthing infuence us or tell us what fear was. I want to hold on to that for as long as possible. I try to enjoy my youth and childhood for as long as possible. People always say I'm an old soul which is true but, I'm not old yet!! let me enjoy my youth while I still have it!!!! I enjoyed my youth over Springbreak. I had fun!! Now I have to go back to school. "Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" If you heard a noise just know that was probably my sceam of shear terror. I'm going to loose my mind when I go back to that place! It will be gone, my fragile insanity will be lost!!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
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